loved the weekend
service was great, learned a lot
loved the presence of God
felt so loved in it :)
headed to the grass patch for
dinner with my cell
had bubble tea & i thought of
a number of ppl
that little green one, NATA
the silly one, the grey straw, slime
ang xuanyi, her BLUE straw, phone, etc
time at the grass patch was
absolutely hilarious !
don't recall laughing so much
in a really long time
i'm sure it applies to many of us too
what about four girls dancing
just to entertain their cell ?
okay it wasn't so much of entertainment
we just started dancing, somehow
st nicks girls' dancing their famous
multi-racial family dance

on the other hand, saturday
wasn't all that good
i had so many thoughts going
through my head & my heart
thoughts that confused me,
thoughts that led me to my usual
wild imagination
hope the few of them are feeling alright
& i had a great time talking to yihui
didn't realise i could've
talked to her about those things
till i finally opened up & shared
with someone ?
figured that i was too afraid to talk
about all that, i was never able to
be daring enough
talked to nicky about it before
but i never brought it up again ?
haha but isaac quah cracked me up
i don't ignore him whenever i see him
joshua cho should never tease me
i will start screaming & i don't, like
screaming ? sounds weird maybe
because i scream, all the time
riiight okay

spent sometime with myself yesterday
i actually enjoyed myself
but i'm glad i relaxed & breathed a little
over the weekend
this week isn't going to be that much of
a break from the busy term
but i shall trust God with my week :)
synergiz is here, again
planet shakers told us they'd be back
& here there are :)
they really did bless us
i believe they will again
things are alr happening
just like what God told us, in advance
& like i feared, he's here
talked to xueting about it,
had anger within me,
felt like doing so many things
to bring him down

i don't like the way he comes
i don't like the way he is
i don't like every single part
of who he is
i don't like what he tries to do
i don't like the way he comes close
to children of God
i don't like the way he brings us down
i really don't like him

who doesn't ?

he doesnt deserve to be
part of this world
talk about boxing him in the face
talk about screaming in his face
talk about running him over with a truck
but i know God has alr done all that
for us, for us sinners
because he loves us, he loves us too much,
too much for us to remain in sin
feel unworthy ? he assures us,
that we are children of God
that he bought us with a price
that he accepts us & loves us
that we cannot be seperated from his
great, unfailing love

xuanyi, i know how much you hate
him for doing this to you
i know how much you hate him
for taking that liberty
away from you
but you've got to know that
your battle has been won
you don't have to fight anymore
you don't have to struggle
with those kind of issues anymore
because in Christ, you are
more than a conqueror
you are his child, he loves you
don't give up on yourself
even if you're in shards,
God is going to take those pieces
& he's going to piece you back,
piece by piece
he'll never let you go
be strong girl, we're supporting you
we'll be here with & for you

i want to be sandra bullock,
practical magic
she had her own personal balcony ?
whenever you opened her window,
she'd see the moon right
in front of her eyes
stars were everywhere
i think i'd stand there staring
& even forget about falling asleep

practical magic

i realised, simple things like
taking a photograph
keeping them for life, because of
the memories they bring
but when you take a photo,
is it all about the whole
" picture-perfect "
idea or is it just all about
appreciating random shots ?
i'm a person, who always thought pictures
do have to have people in them
it has to be about a specific smth
or maybe specific somebodys
but when you look at them,
you see faces, you see objects
then i look at the few random ones
& i see a whole different picture,
altogether
you can actually catch a glimpse
of the fun people have together,
the joy of having friends
the joy of being as a family

i totally looked past that

looked through my received files,
found a picture jessie sent me
a photo of her & jenn, laughing
i took a good look at it,
stared hard & i figured,
no matter how unglam girls look
or how they think of the photo
as a really ugly one,
thats just, them
and i love the way they are
jessie, i still do have that photo

take a break from perfection,
take a look at the big picture